A Mist…

This is not a complaining post but an observing post. It’s been interesting for me to observe things that happen when my house is upside down and everything is in a different place. When you add the reality that my mom is living out her last days on this earth to the upside down house I can see why I’ve lost my daily rhythm. Things that were such simple tasks that I didn’t even need to think about have to be written down on a list of things that I need to do. At the end of each day I have a nagging feeling that I forgot something.  I know that things will fall back to a comfortable everyday new normal again in the future. I know I will enjoy the results of all our hard work and looking at my new fresh floors. I know what the future holds for my mom even though the timing on earth is well out of my hands. “I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able, to keep that which I’ve committed, unto Him against that day”. One of the things that doesn’t change is my slipping into speaking in song lyrics, and I’m glad about that because I enjoy it.

Do you ever find yourself speaking or answering someone with a phrase from a song?

About Ellenhttps://happywonderer.com/I am a wife, mother, baba (grandmother) and a loyal friend. Jesus is my King and my hope is in my future with Him.

22 thoughts on “A Mist…

  1. Hi Ellen, I so appreciate you sharing your gifts, writing, photography, just the joy of knowing Jesus. I do love words from hymns. I don’t think a day goes by that the words of Blessed Assurance don’t come to mind. I love being able to sing (this is the true definition of a joyful noise) at the top of my lungs in the shower, in my car and before I go to sleep at night. I will continue to pray for your family as your mom goes through this time of saying good-bye and see you in a little while.

    Blessings on your day, Ellen Donna

    Sent from my iPad

  2. Oh yes…love that song lyrics are so easy to remember and always on the tip of my tongue! Wishing you many blessings in your upside-down-world…today.

  3. I can identify with living in a Mist – I felt this way after my mother died – unable to find that daily rhythm for a long time. But the words to various hymns reminded me that “this world is not my home, I’m just a passin’ through….” and “Great is Thy faithfulness, Oh God my Father…” to give a couple of examples.
    Praying for you Ellen.

  4. Oh yes, I most definitely do. And it’s usually the hymns, although I love choruses from every decade. “Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus” is one I often sing to myself. Also “Great is thy Faithfulness”. A chorus that I think of is “… for I know that my redeemer lives, and I will stand with Him on that day”.

    I pray that you feel the steadying hand of the Lord upon your shoulder in these times of upheaval.

  5. Often…for we believe in God; we all need Jesus. Because life is hard and may not get easier. So don’t be afraid to know who you are, don’t be afraid to show it…

    Thank you, Ellen, for being so honest and real. Praying for you and your family. It’s a surreal time I am sure.

  6. You put it well…like living in a mist…and yes, I find myself thinking of hymns very often, and the circumstances during which they might have been written. I’ve been thinking of you these days.

  7. You’ve expressed your feelings so well . . . and I love how the words of hymns come to you so easily. That is truly a gift! May the Lord’s presense continue to be ever near in this way.

  8. It is no wonder that you feel a little “unbalanced”. I understand completely. When my Dad and my MIL were both so ill and we were planning my daughter’s wedding, it was rough. At the time, I was wishing I wasn’t working, but looking back I think my job helped to keep me my “rhythm”. I had a schedule, so that helped me to focus. And, yes, song lyrics often come to my mind in conversations. With my co-worker…it’s lines from movies! She keeps us entertained! Continuing to pray for your mom. 🙂

  9. Mom these verses really speak to me too, with the added aspect of life with the Marine Corps and really having to face not knowing where we’ll live or what we’ll be doing in a year’s time. The reality is *none* of us can really count on our plans because the Lord may have changes in store around the corner, but He has used the USMC to make me admit it to myself more often! I love you.

  10. I wonder if souls default to hymns and scripture when we are worried, confused, or troubled? I think it’s a good default. I’ve been thinking of your mom today. Prayers.

  11. Living in a mist – well you k now, as you say, that the mist will eventually part. As for speaking in songs – how nice for everyone around you!
    Me….I sing in the car every day. It clears my mind, clears my throat and puts me in a happy mood.

  12. There is a quiet place, far from the rapid pace where God can soothe my troubled mind.
    I remember that time in 2005 when all rhythm in my life was off beat and I felt just as you do. Sitting at my mom’s bedside day after long day….knowing that the door of her heavenly home would open at any time was precious and so difficult and lyrics flooded through me and often were sung in the room and I’d be humming with the words on my mind. Praying for you in these days of waiting, and sadness. Your new normal will come with it’s beautiful rhythm again where memories of moments will be sustaining treasures. Take care of you! Hugs.

  13. Ellen, you have a lot on your plate right now. If I were you, I WOULD be complaining. Dealing with your emotions in either of these situations is difficult, but both of them at the same time must be overwhelming. I have just said a prayer for you, and I’m sending you a cyber hug. laurie

  14. Ellen, will be praying for you. I cannot sing “I know whom I have believed” without crying these days – because life so often brings with it so many uncertainties.

  15. When it rains it pours. But it looks like you have lots of umbrellas in the form of friends and family to help you through this downpour. Praying that your family will be able to bless and be blessed during your moms final days, surrounded by love and encouragement through it all.

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